3rd Beta

So I went for another beta.

But this is the last one, I get so worked up that it really can’t be good for my little June bug.

And it is 3 434 at 14dp5dt

I was a little worried that it’s not doubling but the clinic says its fine and that I have nothing to worry about

So I am going to relax, enjoy being pregnant and thank God for the amazing miracle He has given me.

I’m pregnant !!!!

2nd Beta

Our second Beta came back at 926 nice strong and healthy.
I was really thinking it might be twins, but I dont know if its going up fast enough.

Either way I am so happy, we are pregnant for the first time ... ever!

Thank you Lord, and pls keep my babies safe and healthy

What a surreal day

I have a lot of catching up to do so here goes.

I decided to test at 8dp5dt, some say to early but I was really hoping that it worked, so woke up on Wednesday morning (22 June, thought it was a good day to test, it was my Granny’s birthday ).

I felt sick waking up not wanting to test, but at the same time wanting to test more than anything.

So I peed in a cup, gross I know but there was a method to my madness.

Took the first POAS (clicks brand) dipped and waited, DH came in and I just shook my head,  it didn’t work, my heart dropped for a moment but somewhere inside me I was going, “ but it had too I can feel it”

So together we dipped the next stick ( IVF brand) waited 2 secs and a very faint line appeared.

At about the same time the clics brand started showing a line..

We were hugging each other, laughing and crying and just loving each other

But test wasn’t over we had 2 more sticks to go, so we proceeded to dip them and as we did, magically 2 lines appeared instantly ...

Happiness knew no bounds, time to get the beta done.

Beta came back  477!!!!

Holy smokes for testing 4 days early we had a huge beta

Happiest day of our lives, we made it we got a BFP

So thankful to our donor for being such an angel and giving us such a huge gift.

But even more than that, Thank you Jesus for your grace and your mercy and this wonderful gift.

2ww crazies

Well, I am in the 2 ww and going slightly insane.

Keep thinking that I might just get a BFP if I POAS now but really I am only 4dp5dt, so maybe a bit early.

I was thinking about our last cycle and I think it was today that I just broke down and cried because I just knew that it was all over.
However today I feel positive today about this cycle, I mean off course I have my fears and their are plenty of them, but I also have hope and I trust that I am pregnant this time.

I have been feeling very light twinges, might be my imagination, as I had a AF is coming feeling the night before the transfer.  However there is something on the left hand side of my uterus, and I am choosing to believe that it my babies making themselves at home.

I pray with all of my heart that I am pregnant, please Lord ...

ET 2 good embies

Our ET was yesterday and although all 15 embies were still growing, but...

Freezing them would be a bit of a problem as they were not good enough.

The 2 embies that we transfered were of really good quality, the RE said that they were blasts grade 4AA and 4AB which is really good!

Dr G also seemed very positive and even said "well lets go get you pregnant"...lol so sweet.

Dr V did my transfer and commented on my beautiful uterus ...lol

So we have to gorgeous embies on board and I pray with my whole heart that they will stick and that we will have a BFP soon, I really want this so badly, it just feels like my donor was perfect and I love everything about her and the whole cycle was such a positive one, I just really want theses embies to be my babies and I want this to be their story.

We did get a call from the RE to say that there was 1 embie good enough t o freeze but that it wasnt their policu to only freeze one and that I frozen embie only has a 10% chance of making it.

Wish I had know before the transfer would have loved to put that embie in as well, probable craziness but hey thats what IF does to you

So please let these babies stick , hoping and praying with all of my heart for a BFP

ER and fert report

Well quite a bit has happened since my last post.

We have had our ER on the 9th of June and our donor was a rock star.
I was hoping for 10 eggs, DH said that he would be happy with 7 ..... we got 17 eggs!!!!!!!!!!!
Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that we would get so many eggs
When the clinic phoned me to tell me I just started crying it was so surreal and wonderful ...

Our Fert report came in the next day on the 10th of June we had 12 fertilised eggs and 3 that looked like something might still happen.  the ER told me not to get to excited because they might not do much, but on the other hand they might pull through.
Again I was in tears, I was blown away it was such a good fert report.

And today they let me know that we were going to do a 5 day transfer as we had 15 lovely embies growing.  It feels like my prayers has been answered I asked that all 15 would make it and here they are doing well.

I am so thank full that we got this far and I believe that our embies will continue to do well.
But most of all I pray that we will get a BFP this cycle and that we will have a baba soon.

I am so thankful to my donor, for the incredible gift that she has given me and for the hope that is flooding my heart, I pray that she will be blessed and happy for I think she is just amazing.