So worried

Ok so we are about to get this cycle started, well in my mind at least!!!

Here is the problem, I haven’t heard from the clinic yet, when last I spoke to the co-ordinator she said that she would let me know as soon as the donor started her Af which was suppose to happen on Friday, it is now Tuesday and I haven’t heard a word from her.....

I tried to call on Friday – no answer

Sent an email on Sunday – no answer

Phoned the clinic on Monday – she doesn’t pick up ( repeat this 5 times)

Leave 3 messages – doesn’t get back to me

Phone the clinic on Tuesday 3 times- she doesn’t answer

Leave a message – she doesn’t get back to me

Now what am I suppose to do with that,

Has my donor decided against the donation?

Has something happened to her?

Has something gone wrong with her cycle?

What is going on I am going insane here!!!!

Idols

So last night I watched the finals of American Idol (really good way to help me distress and forget about our upcoming cycle.

So Scotty McCreery won and I totally love him!!!

He has been the sweetest most sincere boy from the start of Idols and I really have to take my hat off to his parents, they raised a good boy!

Especially in today’s world it seems like, you don’t really find kids like that anymore, by the time they turn 17 they are already so tainted and worldly  all innocence is lost and it seems like most kids can’t wait to get away from their parents.

I hope and pray that we will be able to raise our kids to be something like Scotty, yes I want them to be naughty and I want them to be ruff, especially my boys, but there is something to be said for a child that loves his mom and dad, who knows how to pray and who cares about the people around him.

So hopefully we will get the chance to raise kids that can make a difference, kids who will love...

Quick update

I am hoping that our cycle will start really soon!

I asked my co-ordinator at the clinic to bring the dates forward a bit that our donor would start stimms, but it seems like she didn’t listen to me at all.

Our donor is still waiting for her AF to arrive, hopefully today or tomorrow (please!!!!)

And then our estimates date for ER will be on the 10^th of June.  I was hoping for it to be on the 6^th but that won’t be happening anymore

So I will just breath and keep calm and hope that everything will be fine and go according to plan and that I will get a BFP at the end of June ....

We are in the clear

Thank God!!!

We are in the clear

DH biopsy came back negative for skin cancer, seems that it was just a granuloma.  They did however want to run more blood test to make sure and that came back all clear as well.

I am so grateful

On the baby making front: 

I took my Lucrin shot on Saturday and have been taking estropause, actually upping the dosage tomorrow.

Don’t know if it’s the hormones but I feel Yuk, yuk, yuk!!

Headaches, night sweats and my whole body is just sore especially my lower back, now let’s just hope that it’s all worth it in the end.

Unfortunately VL is not very forth coming with any information regarding my donor, so I hope all is on track, I don’t even know when her stimming starts????

Hope and pray that this works ...

Head over heals

I’m totally head over heels in love, and it does not happen often...

Well,  I might get a bit of a crush now and again on a pair of havaiana flip flops but that is really the extent of it.

That is until I saw these gorgeous pair of clogs from Miu Miu ( pls don’t hold this against me I am not into designers and really not into fashion)

But this is ......Love, LOVE , love

Hope Floats

So life is good at the moment

DH went to get a biopsy done on his arm still waitting for the results.

I have gotten myself to a place where i am fairly optimistic about my upcoming donor cycle.

Actually very exctited, today was the last day for BCP yeay to that, hate those damn things!

Waiting for AF to arrive, Lucrin shot and onto Estropause

Hope and pray that this cycle with bring us a BFP, even more than that I am visualizing my twin babies!